That's when I realised I want to work. Not just any work, work that I truly believe in and love. I would love to do that right away. But with my undergrad degree, there's only so much I could do. Nobody would trust an undergrad inserting an IV tube into their arms. There are so many people suffering day in day out. There are also heaps of people helping them feel better, and I wanna be a part of that.
If you ask me 3 years ago before my undergrad degree, "why dentistry?", my answer would be, "That was what I was subjected to do." I never really know why I want to be a dentist. I thought I have to be one because I told my dad I would when I was 7. Getting the stamp of approval from him means the world to me (I was an attention seeking whore. LOL. Middle child syndrome). And so, I thought that was my dream. Since then, I embarked on a journey of becoming a dentist.
There were a couple of times in which I came to doubt my decision in choosing this career. Being lost and not knowing what to do next scares me. I always thought if anyone would have a career in the healthcare field, doctor, dentist, physiotherapist and nurses are the only few you could choose from. The choices were limited and if I couldn't be at least one of them, what's the point?
I really hit a low this year when I was trying to pass my GAMSAT (so I could go to grad school). But the best part about undergrad was it opens up opportunities to you.
Anatomy was the thing that sparks my interest. My first day of dissection was scary yet exciting. I remember me being pissed in the middle of the dissection because I wasn't learning enough. I want to learn everything about the body in front of me. I want to be exposed with all there is to learn about human anatomy. That was the moment I fell truly in love with anatomy. I get to know myself better as the semester progresses, physically and literally. I became a nerd (LOL), someone no one saw coming. Not even myself. I love attending lectures and doing notes. There was some kind of calm and stillness learning gave me. Knowledge made me full.
This year has been a roller coaster. I've hit lows and highs. I've lost and found myself. I've made friends and connected with them on a personal level. I've gone out of my comfort zone and see the world differently.
What's next you might ask? Well, Grad school and just living life a day at a time. When you enjoy life a day at a time, things that don't matter slips away. Steve Jobs was right. "Live everyday like it is the last day you're alive".
Go out and enjoy life, a day at a time. =)